/ Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i haven been blogging since im back from thailand...
im really thankful that given the messy situation there, im still able
to make it back home on time...and my conclusion from this trip
is i really learn a lot..and gain a lot..
not in terms of the items that i have bought..
but the fact that i get to see others living culture and the food they eat..

in the village that i stayed in, they dont eat good food everyday..
most of the time, its just vegetable with rice...that all they need..
and their white rice, isnt those very good quality one..
not whole grain, and its not pure white...however compare to us..
i believe they are so much healthier..they slaughter their own pigs and chickens..
and they dont know how to use a computer..they just hang around
in their own groups, chatting, eating, farming and slping is what they do..
but one thing, kids there drive motorbike at a very young age..
they learnt whn they are 12/13 years old..

aft coming back to sing, i decided to go back aranda and work..
for the cash, to help out or just to kill time since im having holi..
and aft going back, i realise, that place is no longer the same..
they still have the same crowd, but many many more new faces..
the boss and workers all are new..some i know..some i dont..
sometimes i really regret going back, because everything is not the same..
i dont have that kind of sense of belonging to that place..
and the joy of working there..i dont find it there anymore..
thou in the past, the manager is bad, but i got frens that i can talk to..
can bitch with and complain to..but now, i dont even know who to trust..
so i guess..in this world..nothing stays the same forever..
the world wont stop revolving for you..kind of pathatic, but thats the fact!

anyway, ppl always say that you can see the true colour of your closest fren
in time of needs, i really agree with this statement..
when you have high expectation from ppl that you are close with, you tend to
be disappointed with their actions if they couldnt meet your expectations..
but what about the most basic care and understanding??

for me, im really grateful that in my life, i really have friends that i can
trust. thou we haven gone through the worst phrase of our lives, but at least...
whn i looked back i still see the same faces..i dont know what the future holds
for everyone of us, but its the bits and pieces that binds us close together..
especially whn your world came crushing down, they are there!
nothing else matter anymore..

whn im in thailand, and whn i know there are bombing in bkk, and the messy
situation, and whn im at the village following my fren around to catch up
with her old frens, its remind me of certain ppl.. candice, zihui, xinyuan,
winnie, wanying, kaixin, wendy, may, veron, my cousins and my family..
i felt so out of place whn they are talking in a language that i dont
understand, and i wish i could be back home..to hang out with the usual ppl..
the more they try to make me feel comfortable, the more awkward i feel..
so im thankful..to be home again..

actually this post should be up long ago..but i dragged till now..
blame it on my laziness to blog!

/ Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i haven been blogging since im back from thailand...
im really thankful that given the messy situation there, im still able
to make it back home on time...and my conclusion from this trip
is i really learn a lot..and gain a lot..
not in terms of the items that i have bought..
but the fact that i get to see others living culture and the food they eat..

in the village that i stayed in, they dont eat good food everyday..
most of the time, its just vegetable with rice...that all they need..
and their white rice, isnt those very good quality one..
not whole grain, and its not pure white...however compare to us..
i believe they are so much healthier..they slaughter their own pigs and chickens..
and they dont know how to use a computer..they just hang around
in their own groups, chatting, eating, farming and slping is what they do..
but one thing, kids there drive motorbike at a very young age..
they learnt whn they are 12/13 years old..

aft coming back to sing, i decided to go back aranda and work..
for the cash, to help out or just to kill time since im having holi..
and aft going back, i realise, that place is no longer the same..
they still have the same crowd, but many many more new faces..
the boss and workers all are new..some i know..some i dont..
sometimes i really regret going back, because everything is not the same..
i dont have that kind of sense of belonging to that place..
and the joy of working there..i dont find it there anymore..
thou in the past, the manager is bad, but i got frens that i can talk to..
can bitch with and complain to..but now, i dont even know who to trust..
so i guess..in this world..nothing stays the same forever..
the world wont stop revolving for you..kind of pathatic, but thats the fact!

anyway, ppl always say that you can see the true colour of your closest fren
in time of needs, i really agree with this statement..
when you have high expectation from ppl that you are close with, you tend to
be disappointed with their actions if they couldnt meet your expectations..
but what about the most basic care and understanding??

for me, im really grateful that in my life, i really have friends that i can
trust. thou we haven gone through the worst phrase of our lives, but at least...
whn i looked back i still see the same faces..i dont know what the future holds
for everyone of us, but its the bits and pieces that binds us close together..
especially whn your world came crushing down, they are there!
nothing else matter anymore..

whn im in thailand, and whn i know there are bombing in bkk, and the messy
situation, and whn im at the village following my fren around to catch up
with her old frens, its remind me of certain ppl.. candice, zihui, xinyuan,
winnie, wanying, kaixin, wendy, may, veron, my cousins and my family..
i felt so out of place whn they are talking in a language that i dont
understand, and i wish i could be back home..to hang out with the usual ppl..
the more they try to make me feel comfortable, the more awkward i feel..
so im thankful..to be home again..

actually this post should be up long ago..but i dragged till now..
blame it on my laziness to blog!