/ Friday, November 09, 2007

my diploma course is ending, and im kind of having this mix feeling
inside me...suddenly, i dont know what is the next goal in my life...
its like so aimless and i hate to have this feeling..
should i go for a degree that is wanted from me from my parents...
or should i do wat i want at my own pace? things that i think is right?
seriously...i have no idea at all...an ending or a new beginning ahead??
sometimes i wonder why outsiders can envy my life, whn it is so pathatic..
studys..frens...work...everything looks good exterior but..
i cant say the same for the interior..i dont dare to make a choice..
cos i scare it wil be a wrong one..but yet i know thats wat i want..
i just lack the courage to face everything...alone..
i scare to disappoint ppl...especially my parents...too much money involve...

today i open the letter box, i receive two things, one letter to notify me
of my attendance..another one is the condition offer by RMIT for my
degree course...i got a big headache now..unconfident that i wil pass
al the paper in one go...but yet the deadline to pay the fees is next wk...
so if i fail DMS mean 2k gone from the pocket...but if i pass then
i have to wait another yr...so should i or should i not accept the offer...??
this is just somethings that came at the wrong time..and has affect my
mood very badly! i hate to think, i hate to make a choice..
but i have to...before 17 nov...thats my deadline..

anyway studying week gonna start next wk..cos too much to study alr..
and...i think i have to buck up...dont want to regret later...
so hopefully i can handle..

haha..i have gone back to playing maple story...ahaha..not those
addictive kind..but for fun..why the sudden..errrm..cos my fren was playing..
and he ask me to help him level up...ahaha

ok, actually i stil got some other things to blog, but i cannt remb..
so forget it...if i happen to remb then i wil come back and update agn..
if cannt then forget it..ahha

/ Friday, November 09, 2007

my diploma course is ending, and im kind of having this mix feeling
inside me...suddenly, i dont know what is the next goal in my life...
its like so aimless and i hate to have this feeling..
should i go for a degree that is wanted from me from my parents...
or should i do wat i want at my own pace? things that i think is right?
seriously...i have no idea at all...an ending or a new beginning ahead??
sometimes i wonder why outsiders can envy my life, whn it is so pathatic..
studys..frens...work...everything looks good exterior but..
i cant say the same for the interior..i dont dare to make a choice..
cos i scare it wil be a wrong one..but yet i know thats wat i want..
i just lack the courage to face everything...alone..
i scare to disappoint ppl...especially my parents...too much money involve...

today i open the letter box, i receive two things, one letter to notify me
of my attendance..another one is the condition offer by RMIT for my
degree course...i got a big headache now..unconfident that i wil pass
al the paper in one go...but yet the deadline to pay the fees is next wk...
so if i fail DMS mean 2k gone from the pocket...but if i pass then
i have to wait another yr...so should i or should i not accept the offer...??
this is just somethings that came at the wrong time..and has affect my
mood very badly! i hate to think, i hate to make a choice..
but i have to...before 17 nov...thats my deadline..

anyway studying week gonna start next wk..cos too much to study alr..
and...i think i have to buck up...dont want to regret later...
so hopefully i can handle..

haha..i have gone back to playing maple story...ahaha..not those
addictive kind..but for fun..why the sudden..errrm..cos my fren was playing..
and he ask me to help him level up...ahaha

ok, actually i stil got some other things to blog, but i cannt remb..
so forget it...if i happen to remb then i wil come back and update agn..
if cannt then forget it..ahha